Hey man, im nobody important but i wanted you to know that in some ways youre right but in a lot of it youre wrong. I think life dealt you some seriously terrible cards but I think that if you learn that God is so much more than what denominational faith teaches you then I think you'd be a much happier person. Catholicism is an evil beast that turns God's most devoted followers away. Im writing a book that in part denounces denominational faith. People like to think atheism is believing in science but truth of the matter is if you believe in science then you believe in God its just that nobody is going to tell you that because it doesn't fit the agenda that we've created for scholarly institutions. What I think is that God still and will always love you, that you can overcome a lot of what youre dealing with including the PTSD, I spent some time overseas when I was in the army and some of the stuff you see makes you really question why god would allow it and the answer to that is entropy. The universe groans for restoration and I think when you realize youre worth redeeming you'll focus on your mental and physical health, eat a proper diet, get regular haircuts, and start a family you'll soon realize that suffering truly is temporary and you don't have to choose to live in the past. God loves you, I love you and im sure the people in your life only want to see you happy, successful.

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